Truth & Lies;

Why do we always have to tell the truth?
Why do we lie?

We tell the truth only when it's a good thing.
We lie to make the situation seem better when it's not.

We tell the truth to guide someone who is lost in between the truth and lies.
We also lie and trick the lost person into believing that the lie is the truth.

We tell the truth when we know we have to be honest about things no matter how awful they turn out to be.
We lie when we want to cover up the horrid truth and pretend nothing's wrong.

We let the truth out when we want to resolve a problem.
We lie to make things worse when they already as bad as it could get.

We tell the truth when we need to get it off our chest.
We lie when we want to keep the truth locked away from everybody else.

We tell the truth when we don't want to get caught lying.
We lie when we are too scared to be honest.

When we tell the truth, we either cry tears of joy or sadness.
When we tell a lie, a knife slowly stabs our heart and there is no cure.

We tell the truth, but we also tell a few white lies.
We lie, and we keep on lying until it becomes a habit.

We tell the truth to hide our lies.
We tell lies to hide the truth.

We tend to tell the truth when we are calm and feel like it.
We also tend to lie when being pressured by others who hope for the best when it's actually not.

There is nobody in the world who is completely truthful but there are people who are full of lies.

Being an honest person can be rewarding but it can also make one guilty.
Being a liar can cover up the hidden truth and make everything seem right, but you feel the guilt and pain of lying.

I won't lie about this because I lie too, at times.
But that does not mean I cannot be honest.

I am honest most of the time.
But I can also be a liar as well as I am honest.
So are you, my dear reader.
There is no doubt that everybody lies but we have to know our limits.
When it's time to stop, we stop.
When you feel like lying, by all means; Go ahead -but you're all by yourself there.

I don't know what I'm rambling about but I think I'm making a bit of sense.

Maybe it's the fact that life is full of truths that seem like lies.
Maybe it's the fact that so many lies out there that seem like the truth.

Maybe it's the fact that I'm not satisfied with how much i THINK I've grown up, but I still can't seem to differentiate between the truth and lies.
But what if other people can't differentiate that either?

I feel so disoriented, jovial, dejected, melancholic, infuriated, content, disheartened, and placid -all at the same time.
But essentially, I'm just confused.

It's okay.
Once I know how to differentiate these two things, I know I have completely grown up.
That is, if I'm completely sure I know how to deal with these things.

Well, that's all for now. TOODLES!

With Love,
AliceAdriannaSabki;

Hello Again.

I have abandoned my blog for about 10 months now, and I don't promise that this post means that I will be more consistent when it comes to blogging -but honestly, I kind of miss blogging.

Anyway,

As most of my friends should know, I am on a studying hiatus right now.

I might or might not fly off next year due to personal reasons.

(I am aware that not everybody knows that I'm planning on studying overseas)

However,

I recently had a talk with my Uncle and Aunt one day and I actually feel like I can open up to them more now.

I feel like there are still people in my family besides my grandma, brother and cousins, that actually care for me. :')

I miss Izza. SO MUCH.

I wish she was still living in Sunway, but then again, I'm happy that she decided to go back to Seremban.

You know, in a "I'm-happy-that-she's-happy" kinda way.

On another note, I'm glad that me and Harry are okay now. 

We've beem friends for so long, all we need it to push away all the drama.

We don't need anymore drama.

And I really missed him. :)

While I'm still on the subject of friendship, I am so happy that I have my girls again.

Like, as in all four of us.

Honestly, I usually hang around boys a lot and I've never had many close girl friends because I never really know how to talk to girls and stuff about my problems but Marie, Nadira, and Sarah are the only girls I could really open up to. (This includes Izza too, of course)

I know I'm ranting about stuff I should probably be writing in my diary or journal, but nobody gives two fucks about my blog so I'll just say everything here.

JEEZ okay I'll stop here before I write a novel.

Bye.

I love you guys.

Love always,

Adyy Iskandar. :)

Rest in Peace, My Darling Tigre.

My little lazybum.

Today, I had to put my favourite cat to sleep.

I didn't have a choice.

The vet said there was no more hope for him.

Kidney failure and severe viral infection.

I was lost for words.

I watched as the vet injected an overdose of anesthesia to ease him from his pain.

I first found Tigre when he was about 2 months old in December 2009.

He was walking in the middle of the road.

I asked the driver to stop and I picked him up and brought him home.

He had an injured paw.

It was swollen.

But it healed after getting a shot from the vet.

Tigre was always quiet.

He was very affectionate and loved people.

He would just sit there and let you cuddle him.

Sure, he loved leaving presents at the neighbour's doorstep, but we loved him anyway.

He would only let out his soft meow when he wanted us to open the door, and the usual hunger meow.

A lazy bum, a sleepy head.

He was very playful as a kitten.

Even as he grew older, he loved playing around.

But this morning, it was different. 

Everything was different.

He fell down from the top floor of our 4 storey cat cage.

And he just lay there.

Liquids started coming out of his mouth.

But he never licked them away.

He just lay there and shivered.

I carried him, I wiped away the liquids from his mouth.

His pupils were fully dilated even in the bright light.

I immediately remembered how he was as a kitten.

I put him in the carrier and brought him to the vet.

He was breathing heavily and just staring upwards.

It was so scary.

I couldn't stand to watch him suffer anymore.

When the vet put him to sleep, I just stood there.

Looking at my precious little baby.

He just lay there.

He took one last breath, and he was gone.

Just like that.

Tigre,

You were always my favourite cat.

I will always love you. :'(

So cute.

Tigre sleeping on my lap. :')

       

Goodbye, old friend.

Love always,

Adyy Iskandar.

By Chance (You & I) by JRA

I wish a boy would sing this to me. OMG. <3

Hi
Girl you just caught my eye
thought I should give it a try
and get your name & your number
go grab some lunch & eat some cucumbers
WHY, DID I SAY THAT?
I don't know why.
But you're smilin' & it's something' i like
on your face, yeah it suits you
girl we connect like we have bluetooth

i don't know why
I'm drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we'd equal two?
and this is all based on a lucky chance
that you would rather add then subtract

You & I
could be like sonny & cher
honey & bears
You & I
could be like aladdin & jasmine
lets make it happen

Lalalala lala lala

Lalalala lala lala

Lalalala lala lala

Lalalala lala lala

Hey
How've you been?
I know that it's been awhile.
Are you tired cause you've been on my mind
runnin' thousand & thousands of miles
Sorry, I know that line's outta style
but you
you look so beautiful on this starry night
loving the way the moonlight catches your eyes & your smile
i'm captivated
your beauty is timeless never outdated

i don't know why
I'm drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we'd equal two?
and this is all based on a lucky chance
that you would rather add then subtract

You & I
could be like sonny & cher
honey & bears
You & I
could be like aladdin & jasmine
lets make it happen

babe
its been 5 years since that special day
when I asked you on our first date
i guess it's safe to say

That you & I

are better than
could be like sonny & cher
honey & bears
You & I
are better than aladdin & jasmine

we've made it happen

Singing

Lalalala lala lala

Lalalala lala lala

Lalalala lala lala

Lalalala lala lala

Let me say
you look beautiful on our wedding day.

JRA, this is just the best song EVER.

Breaking Chains.

I've had enough of chains.
What chains you may ask?
Chain letters, emails, texts, and now even bbms!
I used to just forward these messages back to only those who sent it to me.
No offense to the ones who forward the message but to the ones who create it.
I mean like c'mon, "forward this to 20 people or you will die tomorrow"?
And like, "forward this message to 5 people in 5 minutes and your true love will sweep you off your feet on Friday."?
Oh and the infamous "The previous person who didn't forward this message died in 2 weeks."
PLEASE STOP BELIEVING ALL THIS CRAP.


I mean, if you're superstitious and all, it's okay.
But to get everybody to follow all this shit is just lifeless.
And dying if you don't send a message, LIKE HELLO?!
Fate is in the hands of God, thus forwarding the message is as though you do not believe in God because you let a text message be the one who decides your "fate".


Oh well, that's it for now.
I just got a little ticked off about these chain messages being forwarded everyday.
Piled with assignments right now so, BUBBYE! x)


Oh btw, this is my latest look on LookBook taken during the Malaysian International Fashion Week so do click on the "HYPE" button!:D

Love always,
AdyyIskandar.♥♥

Friendship.

It's tough.
It's hard.

But we pull through.

You come.

You go.

But I'll always be here.

I'm here.

You're there.

But nothing's gonna change.

I broke up with him.

He broke your heart.

But we'll never hurt each other.

I fight with you.

You fight back.

But we forgive and forget seconds after that.

I learn this.

You learn that.

But we help each other along the way.

I go away.

We completely lose contact.

But I came back, and so did you.

I'm leaving.

You're staying.

But just remember I'm always a phone call away.

-Adyy.

I love you guys.

Spin The Wheel.

So it's been almost a week after my final exams and I've decided to blog because well, I just felt like it.
Finals were OKAY I guess.


MOVING ON;


So many things happened so fast so now I'm having this terrible headache that I'm trying to get rid of.
If I type out anything that would be hard to understand or just come out as rubbish, I'm sorry.
That's just my brain which is OD-ed with problems, stress, a pinch of happiness, and a shit load of depression.
The only things that are keeping me sane right now are my family and friends.
Everyone says that. But I mean it.
Even though the problem comes from family and friends, they're still the ones keeping me sane.
Weird? I know right. You tell me.


Currently in love with Memory by SUGARCULT.


Right now, as in 2.57am, I feel like dancing.
I just wanna loosen up. :(
You know that BLEARGH feeling?
Going through that right now.
I DON'T KNOW WHY.


Yesterday, went to Pavilion in the day to go see Harry.
Watched the MODA Young Designers' Competition or something like that.
After that, had very late lunch with Harry at the Pavilion food court place.
The food is cheap and also very nice.
Had Nasi Padang or something like that. LOL.
It was nice!


After that, dropped Harry home and went for dinner with the family at Ah Tuan Ee's Peranakan restaurant at SS2.
It was DELICIOUS!
I loved the prawns and Assam Pedas. :)
After that, went to Rasta to meet up with Nadira and Marie.
Imran and Shafiq joined us too!
Imran kena bahan by yours truly. x)
With the help of my braas Shafiq and Dira, Imran kena tembak!
HEHEHE.
Okay that's all I'm gonna say about last night la.
Eh wait, NO.


Imran and Shafiq dropped me and Marie at her house.
I slept over at Marie's! YAY!
We played Hangaroo 2! 
Bloody addictive I tell you!
Then we watched How I Met Your Mother for awhile and camwhore a bit.
We slept around 3.30am? :p


I woke up at 10.30am and while waiting for Marie to wake up, I went online.
Posted up backdated photos on Facebook.
Marie was snoring, so was Cola.
My darling Marie munchiedoodles woke up at 3.00pm.
We had nasi lemak that her mom bought and it was yums.
Kenneth came over to Marie's and I left a while after that.
Don't wanna be third wheel. ROFL!


LOL ANYSCHMOOS,
Back to my boring, not-so-average life.
I'm still that same girl who's waiting for some guy to just fall for me and say it to me.
And this time, he'd actually mean it.
I've got a lot of time, and waiting is gonna be worth it. :)

Candids are usually my favourite.(:

Well, till the next post then.








Love Always,
AdyyIskandar.♥♥

Well Hello There. *wink*wink*

Well, I keep promising to update my blog more often and it always turns out to be an EPIC FAIL promise because it never happens.


ANYSCHMOOS,


I've been so wrapped up with everything! 
College, family, friends, events, enemies, love, hate, and etc.
JEEZ rollercoaster ride life right now.
Well, my IHC paper is tomorrow and so I decided to take a short break from studying and update this sadcase blog of mine. -.-"
My life has been hectic, sure.
But that doesn't mean it hasn't also been boring.


You know the saying, "Old flames die hard"?
Well, I would like to quote that and add "And sometimes, they even come back." at the end of the sentence.
WHY?
Teehee you guess this time, I don't wanna tell you.
Not that anyone ever reads my blog but... MOVING ON... :p


I finally learnt how to change my Adium layout or whateverschnitzel you call it.
My duck is now PURPLE.
My convo window is so prettayh.
Blue on red bubbles. I SHOW YOU. NYEAH.

Ain't it lovely? :)

Sorry la if I seem so jakunated for posting this up.

I'm fascinated by the littlest things okay?:p

So, I should leave you hanging now right?

I should just come back when my finals are over.

I WILL TRY MY BEST.

No more bullshit promises.

I am 19, I shall try to continue wasting my precious last year of youth by TRYING to blog everyday.

Starting... Wednesday. x)

OH YEAH! 

GO CHECK OUT MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!!

ALICE ADRIANNA'S YOUTUBE CHANNEL

OH and go ask me questions on Formspring! I'm going to be so bored once the exams are over!:p

CLICK HERE TO ASK ME QUESTIONS!(:

Patiently waiting for your arrival.

Okay then, you know the drill!

Will go off now and blog again REAL SOON! *i hope*

Love Always,

Adyy Iskandar! ♥♥

Another Heart Calls.

Hiding away all the sorrows in life.

Sorry I've been M.I.A-ing a lot nowadays.
BUT STILL;
I suddenly felt like blogging. 
So yeah.
But I didn't know what to blog about, so I decided to put together a few song titles and form sentences with them.
Some might make sense, some might not.
BUT OH WELL. My blog, not yours. ;p
I'll blog about last weekend and classes soon!
Need to finish up on assignments first. ;(
Here goes!


Avenged Sevenfold.
Dear God, I want to Scream out my Unholy Confessions because I feel so Lost in this Afterlife. I wish You'd make it Almost Easy enough for me to find A Little Piece of Heaven in this Bat Country.


Avril Lavigne.
I Will Be the Best Damn Thing you ever had and always will have. I'm With You every step of the way and I'll be a great Girlfriend. But if things get too Complicated and Tomorrow you decide that we shouldn't be together, I'll be okay. I'll Keep Holding On until I find My Happy Ending.


Adam Lambert.
A Loaded Smile will Pick You Up and make you wanna Strut.


Frank Sinatra.
When I threw Three Coins in A Fountain, I wished for Something Stupid. I wanted Someone to Watch Over Me. And then when I was Learnin' The Blues on that Same Old Saturday Night, I decided that what I needed was the Melody Of Love. As I was reaching the South Of The Border, I felt like I had been walking Night and Day to get my fair share of L.O.V.E.


Hot Hot Heat.
Oh Goddammit, why don't you Talk To Me, Dance With Me. Let Me In so that I can see the Bandages that are helping to keep you together. Don't leave me in the Middle Of Nowhere without your simple Goodnight, Goodnight.


Lady GaGa.
Do you want to Dance in The Dark with Alejandro? Or do you want to Just Dance with that Silly Boy? When you see him, don't get Starstruck like a newborn Paparazzi who's waiting for something other than his Poker Face. Just answer that Telephone and put the Words together so that you can end this Bad Romance.








Oh well, that wraps it up for now.
My bottom lip has something like a mosquito bite but not quite one.
It needs to be iced, stat!







Love always,
AdyyIskandar.♥♥

Walk away from the door, walk away from my life.

Steve Aoki.

I know it's been SUPERLONG since I blogged but college has been CRAZY.
Not only college, but the whole moving thing too.
Oh well.
Here's what I REALLY wanted to blog about today.
EUPHORIA by Ministry of Sound presents STEVE AOKI.

The Tickets.(:

So the plan was to go and see Steve-O with Sabira and Izza.(:

Gave my extra ticket to Syafiq.

Here's the cool part about it.

Izza and I didn't know what to wear and were trying to solve the problem for a few hours.

While we waited for Sabira to get her car back from Aunty Zah, Izza and I stalked some people on Facebook.

It was damn funny actually because we stalked all the people we never knew we would stalk.

AND OH, nobody else is gonna know who we stalked so don't even try to dig out the secret.XD

Sabira came moments later and we were ready to hit MOS.

At first we thought the road was freaking jammed up but then realized that 3 out of the 4 lanes of the road was taken up by the cars who parked to go see Search and Wings at the Bukit Kiara Equestrian Club.

Freaking hell it took us like half an hour to get out of that very short road. -.-"

Anyschmoos, when we reached MOS, Syafiq wasn't there yet.

We went in anyway and sat at The Deq while waiting for his arrival.

When Syafiq arrived, we went to pass him the ticket to see that the staff people were like guarding that place.

Syafiq came with Amira, Armand and Syazwan.

I was so scared that the security guy would ask me why I was giving him my ticket or something like that, so I passed it to Amira when the guy wasn't looking.

Well, when everyone was inside, we eventually lost Sabira. AHAHAH.

She went to her other friends and we kinda joined Mu'iz, Azaidi, Bashar and all. 

But most of the time it was just Syafiq, Izza and I.

I bought a Steve Aoki tank top and got a Dim Mak pouch kinda thing free!!

Apa lagi, new pencil case la!:p

Izza and Syafiq got a top each too.

We were so hyped up that we decided to change into the clothes we bought!;p

MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THE NIGHT;

STEVE SIGNED MY TANK TOP!!!

SUPER HAPPY I SWEAR!!!!

So we pretty much danced the whole night.

Here are some of the pictures!(:

STEVESTEVESTEVEAOKIIIIIIII♥♥

It was an awesome night!

When it was over, we went to AC to grab a drink.

We were so thirsty and tired.

It was a freaking awesome night and so totally worth the time and money!

Nobody can rock it like Aoki!:D

And now, for my favourite picture of the night;

HE'S JUST TOO SEXY.

Well, that's all for now.

And as for now, it's back to college and the whole moving situation.

Seriously, it was an unforgettable night!♥

Love Always,

AdyyIskandar.♥♥

I'm bringing Adyy back to life. :D