Goodbyes.

I've been thinking a lot lately.

Maybe a little too much.

But I've come up with a conclusion.

It's simple and I don't know why I haven't discovered it all this while.

I'm gonna leave.

I've been a burden to so many people who were so patient with me.

I've been interrupting with people's lives so much that I feel like such an arse for that.

I've been thinking too much that it ruins my mood, which makes me ruin other people's moods too.

So I'm leaving.

Not on a jet plane.

I'm not going to turn back.

I'm not going to hate myself for doing this.

I need to find myself.

I need to find out what I'm supposed to be doing in life.

I need to drift away and leave all those who suffered in my account.

I need to free them of this huge burden I've been putting on them all this while.

What was i thinking?

I can't have everything I wish for.

I have to work for it.

I can't just burden someone who doesn't deserve more shit in their lives.

I mean, everyone has their own problems to resolve.

And stupid me, without thinking; Adds to the burden that already exists.

I'm leaving.

And I'm going to keep going until I find out what to do with myself.

Until I find out why I'm always like this.

Until I learn to appreciate the little things and not ask for more.

I need to grow up.

So thank you to those who have shown me a greater love than love itself; Friendship.

I love all of you to bits.

PleadingGuilty,

AliceAdriannaSabki.

*I Don't Deserve Special Treatment*