No More Birthdays.

I'm sick of having birthdays. WHY?? I'll tell you why. Because when I have my birthdays, people that I really hope to be there turn me down in the end. They cancel. They give bullshit reasons why they can't come. But when it's some popular person's birthday, cepat je cakap yes. I'm not chasing popularity like you and neither do I care about it, I have a wonderful life, but it hurts. During my birthday, you'd think I'd have happy dreams when I slept. But NOOOO, I cried in my sleep. I had NIGHTMARES.

This makes me think if I was even friends with the right people.

The one that ticks me off the most is when I go for other people's stuff, those people would say things like "why didn't X come?", "how could X not come?" or the occasional "some kind of friend X is for not showing up". Well, goes to show you're the kind that attends everyone's party. And has a big heart. More like big FART. Did you come for MY party? You DID??!! Oh wow, I certainly didn't see you there.

I am now an antiself-celebration person. I would love attending parties and celebrating my friends' birthdays, but not mine. No matter how old I get, I won't bother to celebrate my birthday. When's my birthday again? Oh wait, I don't have one anymore. I just know that I'm a year older each year. That's better. Doesn't make me look forward to people coming for my birthday or getting presents or even meeting up with ANYONE during my birthday. As of now, June 21st is no longer important to me.

I love everyone, I will go to their parties when invited from now on, but I swear, I will NEVER EVER have a birthday party every again. Too many expectations. Too much time wasted. I could do many things in one day rather than wait for last minute phone calls cancelling on me. I don't care if anyone terasa because HOW DO I FEEL after all you've put me through? All the money I spent to prepare for the party. All the credit wasted to text or call you people. All the time wasted when I could do more productive things.

BAH.

Fuck you losers.

I'm sorry, I'm just not in a good mood right now.

As for those who have always been there for me, I love you people.

Those who are my friend just because I know people, just because I'm not pretty so that I won't outshine you when we go out with a group of boys, those who are friends with me but do not like me but are still my friend for the sake of one of your friends who is, screw YOU.

I AM PISSED OFF.

This will all be okay later, but for now, I'm just SO ANGRY.

I can only be happy when you're sorry.

adyyiskandar.

*Farewell, Prince William. For we no longer share the same birthday.*