I've been thinking a lot lately.
Maybe a little too much.
But I've come up with a conclusion.
It's simple and I don't know why I haven't discovered it all this while.
I'm gonna leave.
I've been a burden to so many people who were so patient with me.
I've been interrupting with people's lives so much that I feel like such an arse for that.
I've been thinking too much that it ruins my mood, which makes me ruin other people's moods too.
So I'm leaving.
Not on a jet plane.
I'm not going to turn back.
I'm not going to hate myself for doing this.
I need to find myself.
I need to find out what I'm supposed to be doing in life.
I need to drift away and leave all those who suffered in my account.
I need to free them of this huge burden I've been putting on them all this while.
What was i thinking?
I can't have everything I wish for.
I have to work for it.
I can't just burden someone who doesn't deserve more shit in their lives.
I mean, everyone has their own problems to resolve.
And stupid me, without thinking; Adds to the burden that already exists.
I'm leaving.
And I'm going to keep going until I find out what to do with myself.
Until I find out why I'm always like this.
Until I learn to appreciate the little things and not ask for more.
I need to grow up.
So thank you to those who have shown me a greater love than love itself; Friendship.
I love all of you to bits.
PleadingGuilty,
AliceAdriannaSabki.
*I Don't Deserve Special Treatment*
